Days 26 & 27: Sleep + Emotions = Potential Self-Sabotage

There’s no science to back this up, but as a human guinea pig, with my attemps to be as open and candid for you as possible, it’s important that you understand I’m human.  I’m not super human.

Let me explain.

In the years and years I have learned about myself and about my own recipe for success, I’ve learned that the thoughts that bounce between my ears (we’ll call this my Emotions) + my current state of rest and recovery (we’ll call this Sleep), this will result in how I set myself up for success that day in eating.

For example, we spent about 4 hours in the car on Saturday to enjoy some wonderful time with family.  As much as I loved our time, it drains my energy to have three kids in the car for 4 hours in one day.  It’s worth it but hard.

We didn’t get to be until about 10:30-11:00 and I try to be in bed by 9:00-9:30, so I woke up at 7:30 a.m. on Sunday morning.  It was technically enough sleep but it was out of my normal routine and therefore my sleep suffered.

I felt rushed to get ready for church and that didn’t feel good.

We came home from church and I felt exhausted, stressed, and just not in my groove for the rest of the day.

EMOTIONS + SLEEP = Potential Self-Sabotage for me….

The REsult?

It FELT LIKE I WAS ON A DIET YESTERDAY!!!  I was fighting the urge to eat at every corner.

Sometimes this happens.

So what did I do?

I ate 8 cashews not in the plan.

Then another 8.

Not bad, right?!

You bet not!  That was a win.

But the entire day felt like a battle.

Then I FEEL bad about FEELING bad!  Haha!

Then another 1/2 protein bar.

And another 150 think thin bar.

I was spiraling out of control as the day ends.

I know…I know….  you might be thinking….Jamye, that, my friend is not out of control.

It’s not.

You’re right.

I couldn’t done a LOT more damage.

But I FELT out of control. And this is the feeling that I do not like.

This too shall pass.

What happens with me is that I start to “sneak” in foods where I could…  A little whole egg instead of my egg whites.

Again, I know you’ll judge me by thinking I’m super crazy and waaaay too self disciplined.  And that’s okay.

Judge away.

I’m just telling you what my own RED FLAGS are for a slow open door to a full self-sabotage.

The self-sabotage where I throw in the towel, and open up the pantry, stand on the chair and wait for everyone to leave the room so I can shove chocolate, carbs, candy….ANYTHING in my mouth to FEEL better…  This is usually a 1,000 to 1,500 calorie consumption in about 10-15 minutes tops.-

I know.  I’m really fast! Ha!

But I stayed the course.

I made my egg whites (with only 1 extra egg), then I added cheese….LOTS of it…. (This is not in the plan)……….

Uuuuuhgggggghhhhh….

I stared at those eggs….my thoughts, and My potential failure.  I started to eat them but stopped.

I supposed Holy Spirit just spoke wisdom into me and asked me…

“WHY?  What are you going to gain from this? You’ll just be upset with yourself afterwards.”

I briskly walked into the room.  I handed Robert my eggs and said, “Please throw these away.”

He knew.

He always does.

I’m not perfect.

One day is a success, and then there are days that are HARD.

I felt required to tell you this story in hopes that someone, somewhere out there has struggled with these same moments of self-sabotage.

Sometimes I win, like yesterday and sometimes I fail.

I spent A LOT of years failing and trying again and again and again.

One thing that I’ve learned is that in order to truly fail, you must quit.  Quit indefinitely.  Therefore, in order to succeed, you must not quit.  If we feel like we’ve failed then we must realize that when we make the decision to keep going and try again, we have just experienced the beautiful gift of LEARNING.

What have you learned along the way?

I’ll end this by saying: Take heart to learn your own red flags to self-sabotage.  For me, it’s lack of sleep + emotional stress.  What are yours?

I pray that you can choose the best decision in your split second “egg and cheese” moments like mine.

I think you’ll be happy you did.

I know that this morning I am.

I’m happy because I made the best decision for me in that moment, not because of some macro-nutrient, egg white or whole egg decision, but that I made MY best decision.  That’s what I’m happy about.  I’m happy when I live my best version of me, and am in control of my own decisions.

I pray you have an incredible day!

My we LEARN to keep going and enjoy the lessons life brings our way!

 

Comments

  1. In order to truly fail, you must quit. Best take away ever. Love to all.

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