Jamye’s Story

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[Excerpt taken from The Red Carpet Heart: A 12-week Disciple-making Experience]

Free Message for you.  Jamye’s full story is included in this message.

“Walk Confidently”

 

My Heart Story

My four brothers and I were raised in a Christian home. Seven of us lived in our four-bedroom, two-bathroom home in sunny Southern California. Our dad was the pastor of a non-denominational Christian church. I loved that church. I saw our church go through building program after building program, expanding and growing.

When I was three years old, my grandparents came to visit us. One Sunday morning, my family tells me, with my little hand inside my grandmother’s soft one, I swung my arm and hers together and skipped to church alongside her. As we moved toward the church I looked up at my grandmother and said, “Grandma, this is my church, and everybody loves me!” What a bold and confident statement to make at such a young age! And I truly meant it. This was my church, and it was a place for me of love and safety.

My Young Heart for God

I went on to receive Christ in my heart at the age of eight. My twin brother at my side, he and I marched up those slippery stairs to the baptistry and made the decision of our lives. I repeated the prayer to receive Christ with everything in my heart. I was now a daughter of Father God in heaven. I was loved.

As I grew, so did my relationship with God. I knew what was right and what was wrong. And I didn’t like displeasing God. In fact, I disliked it so much that I felt guilty all the time, fearful over things I had done wrongly. As I grew older, I began to struggle with incredible insecurity. That insecurity turned into anxiety. On the outside I looked as if I had everything together, but I didn’t. I was miserable. I knew God loved me. I knew Jesus was the answer. But I couldn’t find that once-and-for-all feeling of life that I wanted.

My Heart for a Husband

I graduated from high school and moved on to college in Orange County, California. Hoping to meet Mr. Right, I walked into my freshman orientation with high hopes. I looked around and was sadly disappointed. I didn’t see him. What was I supposed to do for four years in college if I wasn’t going to find my husband there? I hurried to my dorm room, called my mom and dad and said, “I think I’m at the wrong school. My husband is not here.” They laughed on the other side of the phone at me, but I was serious.

My disappointment led me down a path of searching for something greater for my life. Who would define me? Who would make me happy? I loved God. I loved Jesus. But the Lord just wasn’t cutting it for me—or so I thought.

As I continued through college, I attended Christian conferences from time to time, and I would always get that “conference high.” I would get so excited about God that I felt as if I could set the world on fire. Then my excitement would fade, and I would be left with my discouraging emotions once again. I was disappointed with my Christian walk. How was I supposed to tell other people about Jesus when I wasn’t happy with my own life?

A Heart in Love

Four years later I finished college and moved back to my hometown. Disappointed and lost, I took a teaching job at a Christian school. Expecting nothing from this job, I took a tour of the facility, and as I followed the director of the school, I walked down the stairs and saw the hottest guy!

He was standing on a chair changing a light bulb. He had on blue jeans and a tight, pure white T-shirt, and muscles were everywhere. Wow! My heart jumped out of my chest. I smiled a sweet smile. I later found out that this guy was the maintenance supervisor of the school.

I thought to myself, Do I know how to pick them or what?! I went home that day and told my parents about this hot janitor at the school. If I could have captured the look on my parents’ faces, I would have. They wanted to know if this guy was more than just hot. Did he love Jesus? Did he have an education?

Months later I got to know this janitor. His name was Robert. Ten months after our first date, we were married and on our way to live in Fresno, California. Why were we headed there? Because this hot janitor was going to attend school in Fresno to become a doctor—a PhD in psychology. This was, and is, one impressive guy!

A Bored Religious Heart

I was still, however, missing out on the fullness God wanted me to have in my relationship with Him. Robert and I went to church every Sunday, although neither one of us really wanted to get out bed on Sunday mornings. We wrote our tithe check and were committed Christians. But we sure weren’t living the life God intended for us. Church was okay. There were good Sundays, but none of them was life changing. We tried serving in the church, because we knew that was the right thing to do, but it was not fulfilling. I read my Bible during the week, but only because I knew I should. But I didn’t really understand anything I was reading.

Then one Sunday in January of 2007 everything changed. While driving to church that Sunday morning, I saw a sign that read “CelebrationChurch.” Something inside me said, “Go there.” I had a strong attraction to the place. I didn’t know why. A little nervous about what was going on inside me, I decided to tell Robert. He was in agreement with what I was feeling. So the following Sunday we went to CelebrationChurch.

My Heart Filled

I walked into the church that day feeling spiritually lifeless—and I walked out completely revived. Although I didn’t realize it until months later, I met someone that day who changed my life. It was the Person of the Holy Spirit. What happened that day set my heart in motion. My heart was unveiled and finally had breath.

I began walking in the Spirit of God, loving others as I had never loved. Nothing weird had happened that Sunday, or anything that would have been obvious to the natural eyes. But my life had changed. I began radically following Jesus like a zealous woman. I was, and I still am, in love with our God.

After that day I went to deep places with God in the quietness of our tiny apartment. God and I fell in love. And in that love I have deepened and strengthened my relationship with Him ever since. This heart transformation, which led also to a physical transformation, now enables me to walk in a confident freedom in Christ.

Your Heart

It is my desire that you… {for more, see The Red Carpet Heart: A 12-week Disciple-making Experience-available January 2014}

Comments

  1. Your blog is beautiful…..such an inspiration! I can’t wait to see what The Lord has in store for your new adventure. Thank you for everything!

  2. Brenda LaMont says:

    I love it!!! I sit here with tearful eyes of how proud of who you are in Christ. It has been a blessing to see you grow in Christ and encourage others in their growth too! Thank you for your example.

  3. Are you tweeting with Beth Moore?!?! Awesome 🙂

  4. Breann Dowding says:

    Your blog is beautiful. And just to think a year ago you took one step in obedience from the most wonderful Father to start a small blog, to transforming your physical body, stretching your faith yet again, to take even more steps in obedience, to writing a book that touched a small group of women and now on a road to touching the numbers. Jamye you are a faithful servent, one I am sure God is well pleased with. You are an encouragement to all you come in contact with because of the glow of the father that you carry. I am excited to see what the Lord has in store for you in this coming year. May God fill you with even more blessings.

    • Thank you so much, Breann! YOU are a blessing! I look forward to ALL that the Lord has in store for you and Ryan this year. Let heaven open and the blessings pour out! With love, Jamye

  5. Ashlee Spear (Bodenhamer) says:

    Hi Jamye!

    My mom told me about your blog and that i had to check it out. I’ve only read a few posts, and they’re great! It’s awesome to hear your voice in your writing and read about your perspectives and experiences. Also wonderful to hear you and your family are doing so well:)

    Kudos,
    Ashlee

    • Hi Ashlee!

      It’s so good to hear from you! We had a baby almost four weeks ago now and the family is doing great. Glad you enjoyed the site! Hope things are going well in married life. 🙂 So good to hear from you!

      Jamye

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