Ever been in this situation?

Have you ever faced something in life that you just did not want to do?  Maybe you had to pay a bill, get the procedure, tackle the project, finish the assignment, take the test, confront a situation…  You know–facing something that you knew was going to be difficult.  Have you been there?  Yeah, me too.

There are two specific things that come to mind for me that I didn’t want to face.

1. Pay off $194,000 of debt (not including our mortgage).

It’s been almost six months since I’ve shared anything on this blog and better yet, been on social media.  In my “Peace & Prosperity–What is it?” post, I shared the difficult long exhausting nails-on-a-chalkboard task of getting out of nearly $200,000 in debt.


That process was something we didn’t want to do.  Pay down Goliath.  Goliath was that one $80,000 (actually OVER $80,000!) student loan that we had to pay.  Robert and I could mentally handle the other debts, but this one?  Whew.  It was way too big.  You can read more about it in my post.

Looking back, I didn’t want to do it. And if you asked me to do that again, I wouldn’t want to.  Ever been stuck in a situation like that?  I hear ya!  I feel ya!  I’m sorry!

2. Do a natural labor.

I’d given birth naturally two times prior to this one.  One was 9 lbs 7 oz. and the other 9 lbs 4 oz.  The first took about 16 hours and the other was less than three hours.

This pregnancy was much different than the other ones.  I decided to eat within some control in hopes of NOT gaining 70 pounds and give our baby all the nutrients he needed.  AND, I worked out in the gym almost up until the 9th month (with heavy weights).  That was hard but not unbearable.


Then came the time for the delivery.  I prepare for months in advance for a natural childbirth.  I read and watch birth stories.  I meditate and worship.  I do everything to get my mind ready for the birth.

Friday, September 30th, I went to bed totally pregnant (see this pic??!  This is 2 days before giving birth), and I woke up in the middle of the night ready for LABOR (aka…HARD WORK).

***Don’t worry my friends, I’m not going to go into ANY detail about the delivery.*** wink wink wink


We got to the hospital at about 3 am.  And I did NOT want to go through labor.  I knew what it took to have a 100% natural childbirth and while I wanted to do it 100% natural, I didn’t want to do it.  I was stuck facing something I just didn’t want to do but I wanted the end results.

Ever been there?  Wanting the results but not wanting to do the work?

I’ll just say this.  6 hours later, we (I say WE because Robert was such a strong support through that birth that I couldn’t have done it without him and our very very good friend and amazing doula) did it all natural.  I cried, I complained, and well, I did it.

At 9:19 a.m. we gave birth to our beautifully handsome blessing of a boy, Benjamin Robert Sack.  11 lbs 2 oz. and 23.5 inches long.  (No gestational diabetes, just one big baby! haha)  No wonder why I didn’t want to go into labor!



This healing was by far the quickest and the best.  God is so good!

Needless to say, I didn’t want to do that.  And needless to say, we are done at three kiddos!  Ha!  I do NOT want a 13 pound baby!  Help. Me. Jesus!


Conclusion: What do YOU face?

Are you facing something you don’t want to do right now?  Heal the relationship?  Kick that addiction?  Start that journey?  What are you facing?

If you don’t mind, can I tell you what I face?

I face a 45 pound pregnancy weight gain.  Not bad, right?  Well, kind of.  You see……. I went to the doctor for my “green light” to do all normal activities and I stepped on the scale.  I was 12 lbs LESS than my 39 week check up just two days prior to Benjamin’s arrival.

12 pounds less.  11 lbs baby.  Ummmmmm…. the last 7 weeks I healed beautifully but I also GAINED weight!  And that’s a lot more than just some milk weight!

I have never been able to get my body back until about 18 months after my babies are born.  But, I think I want to try this time.  I know that I will feel so much better and be a better wife and mama.

But the problem is this……………

I DON’T WANT TO DO IT!!!!!  I know how difficult it is to do and I just don’t want to do it.

I don’t want to lose 33 pounds and reshape my body BUT I want my body back.  I can’t fit in ANY of my clothes and I have a crying spell just about every time I have to go somewhere with clothes on…and that’s EVERYWHERE!  And with this hot weather, I can’t hide in sweatshirts because I’m dying of heat.  And my stretchy pants are almost unstitching because they can’t stretch that far.

Join me as I start this journey.  TODAY!  I’ve started TODAY! {insert nervous face here}

You can watch this journey of mine (and join me if you want!) at my “Shes Strong in Mind and Body” Instagram account because I won’t be consistently blogging about it on this site but posting on my Instagram account.

That’s at @ShesStrongInMindAndBody

There you’ll find my nutrition, workouts, BEFORE (or actually, RIGHT NOW pics!), and more about my journey.

Would you do me a favor and help me by sharing this blog on Facebook and/or tag a friend on Instagram?  Then, could I be so bold as to ask you to help me by encouraging me along the way?  I SO need it!  I need this accountability and I need YOU!

And just a side note between you and me… for the sake of me focusing on my family and being fully present, I’m just going to be on my @ShesStrongInMindAndBody Instagram account instead of this blog, facebook, and Instagram.  I wish I could do it all but I just can’t.  That’s why I need your help!

Oh how I’ve missed you!

Trying my very very best to Live Intentionally Focused Everyday (not perfect, but focused…)

All my love!



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